As a child I was so in love with God and felt His spirit lead and convict me at such a young age. I lost this sensitivity to God's spirit and spent the rest of my childhood and high school years desiring to be close to God but only halfheartedly pursing him and thus unable to find Him. I was frustrated and at the age of 19 I gave up and pursed the world. My pursuit of the world and its shiny things left me diseased, empty, insecure, and MISERABLE. Well since I was a least less miserable when I was attempting to find God, I tried a little harder this time. I remember getting on my face in my barracks room and crying out to God in my pain, “God I thought you were supposed to be this bright shining light and easy to find. Why can’t I feel you? Why do I have no peace?" A week after this prayer, my mother sent me the Weigh Down Diet in the mail. I read the book and was sorely convicted by Gwen's words and her relationship with God. I took my conviction and stuffed it. I convinced myself that Gwen was probably not sincere or truthful about the closeness and intimacy of her relationship with God. Well, many humbling, chubby years went by and I couldn't get Gwen or her words out of my head or heart. I knew she was right, and I started to have hope that maybe I could be close to God. I stared the Weigh Down Advanced class and I can't express to you how grateful I am for that opportunity to change! I was floating, singing, passing my test and falling back into love with the amazing God that I remembered from childhood. Of course the weight fell off me, 50 lbs. but who cares! I had found my Father, my husband, my best friend, my king, my provider and comforter. I had peace, joy and laughter no matter what hardships surrounded me. Of course I wanted to be surrounded by people who felt just like me, those who had found the treasure and joy in laying down sin and living for purity. I followed the one person in my class I saw living it out to her church in hopes that there were more people in this world like us who wanted to obey and live only for God. After one Remnant assembly I knew there was no going back for me. I knew God's presence was with this small group and I knew I wanted to be where God was. I now lead a peaceful and blessed life that I am so undeserving of. I praise God for allowing me to find Remnant Fellowship so I could see others walk it out and know it was possible for me too!
If you would like to learn more about how to have this peace and a relationship with God that Jolinda found, watch Weigh Down Ministries’ Connection Playlist.